I Wish I Was

November 16, 2005 — 2 Comments

The past few days I have been thinking about a lot of things, and much has been on my mind. But the main focus of my thoughts have been on humility. Humility is something that I cannot claim to have. Sometimes I don’t even want to work on it–I put it aside and decide that I will take the consequences of my actions. I know beforehand that pride leads to a fall, but I don’t care. I just push on ahead, putting those great thoughts of humilty behind me.

Then there are those times when I display false humility. The humility that in reality is nothing more than pride. We’re not humble, but pretending to be so we can be proud we are so humble. We’re proud that everyone around us thinks we’re humble. I’m afraid it doesn’t work that way.

Over the past weekend, I began reading Humility: True Greatness by C.J. Mahaney. It’s a powerful book–extremely thought-provoking for me personally, especially considering the circumstances surrounding receiving this book (which I may relay to you some other time). This book has begun to help me strive for true humility in practical ways.

Even though there are those times when I don’t feel like being humble, I am still pushing on towards humility, and taking it step by step, as is Pastor Mahaney. It gets harder for me each and every day as God continues to bless me in so many ways.

But I have to remember James 4:6:

But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says:
“God opposes the proud
but gives grace to the humble.”

We need to understand that humility is taking the attention and glory that belongs to God off of ourselves. We need to give all the attention and glory to Him. When we take the glory off of ourselves, we shine it on the awesomeness of God.

We are to be the least. God is to be the greatest.

It’s a wild thing to realize that being the greatest is really being the least. And that’s a hard struggle. It’s the root of sin–wanting to do what we want. What we want as humans is sin, and when we sin we are putting God below us.

That’s a huge reason for the New Age movement–people want what they want–their own rules, laws, religion–and they want to look out for number one. That’s who matters to them.

But it doesn’t work that way at all. The least shall be the greatest.

And I’ve got a long way to go.

Tim Sweetman


Tim Sweetman is a young writer, blogger, and student who lives near our nation’s capital, Washington D.C. He has been much more widely known by his “code-name,” Agent Tim. This name also served as the name of his popular blog, which received over 750,000 visits between 2005 to 2007. In 2005, he quickly rose to become a leading teenage spokesperson and cultural critic within the booming blogosphere, taking on issues such as MySpace, alcohol, homeschooling, pride, racism, tolerance, and other topics relating to our culture today. His blog has come to the attention of people such as Albert Mohler, C.J. Mahaney, Alex and Brett Harris, and La Shawn Barber. Tim’s written work has appeared in Lifeway’s Living With Teenagers (February 2012), Lookout Magazine, FUSION Magazine, The Brink Online, The Old Schoolhouse Magazine, Virtue Magazine, Regenerate Our Culture Online Magazine, and on many other blogs and websites across the internet like Marry Well and the Lies Young Women Believe Blog. He has also been featured in WORLD Magazine, The Towers Magazine, and Maryland Newsline. He is scheduled to have an article appear in Veritas Magazine this December. Most recently, his work can be found on Focus on the Family’s Boundless Webzine. His personal interests include writing (surprise!) and sports, both watching and playing. He is a die-hard Washington Redskins fan.

2 responses to I Wish I Was

  1. Hey, you think you have a problem with pride… I’ve got to work on that alot.

  2. One of my favorite humility quotes (from CS Lewis): ‘Humility isn’t thinking little of yourself; it’s thinking nothing of yourself.’ False modesty is the easy way out. True humility means that your interests do not matter at all. True humility means recognizing it when you have a gift or talent and choosing to give all the glory you may receive from it to God. (I could go on for quite a while…it’s all a part of the mantra I repeat to myself.)

    Anyhoo – thanks for the post.

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